After letting out my frustration last night, I told hub I needed to go out a little more… So today I brought 2boys to Pyramid. I want to get a new pair of spectacles. My 3months old spectacles were ‘destroyed’ few days back. Can’t blame the helper Jude as he was actually trying to bring mummy spectacles in the morning… Sweet…. But cost me RM228 poorer.
It was a blessing as I pretty much got everyone fed by 9am. And smoothly finishes some of the things I had to. And we were showered and changed pretty quick. After early lunch off we three went to window shopping.
It’s now possible for three of us to go out on our own. Jude will take car seat. Manfred willing to walk a little on his own(he used to only want to be in stroller) Jude is willing to hold on to stroller while Manfred in stroller and vice versa, little help from ring sling, and the ability of them to take orders from me.
We spent some time snapping pic… It was fun. I had to bribe with some sugary snacks. 🙂 I let them get on kiddy rides.(duduk sahaja ya) stop by toys department. And I told
Manfred we are not going on the merry go round cause mummy no money. Wait daddy go then daddy pay money go merry go round.
While I was choosing my spectacles frame, they want to be a part of it too. They behaved well and thank lord we didn’t break anything at the store. Lol
Ok, today I am feeling more balance. My parent still act like child somedays.(yes, despite all downs, challenges, obstacles in life, things that I hated the most is to see my parents argue) i suppose they hasn’t resolved the problem. Which I guess I am not, and never in the position to help. I shall now just sit and let them resolve on their own.
From teenage years it has happened and it’s still happening. I used to curl up under blankets and cry when I hear them arguing in the living hall. I kid you not, real time big DRAMA. now I don’t cry when I walk into the middle of their fight, but It still affects me emotionally. Very much. I told them they are both ANNOYING! and went home with my boys. Then I told my hub, how much it hurts me to see own parent fight. So we shall try as much never to do that.
When I drove off from my parent place on Monday, Manfred asked me:”mummy what happened to ah gong and ah ma?” why they talk loud? And he even told me he could tell ah gong ah ma very upset. For god sake. 3year old oso can understand d… How long more this will continue? Sucks!