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Stressful…..

I shouldn’t be feeling this way. Yet I do. Whenever my boys cries or whined or show unhappy face, I just can’t help to think it might because I wasn’t doing the right thing for them. But I shouldn’t feel that way right? Everyone includes babies and toddlers has their ups and downs right?

I can’t be the goddess person and just do everything they want right? sometimes they need to know although mummy loves them but there’re somethings that is just forbidden right????? Anyhow it’s just pure rant… Actually after a while they usually settle back into bubbly self… I just got to take things 1 day at a time…… inhale and exhale when I feel stressful….. lesser yelling…. more more more patient…. more more joyous smile……

Gosh….. why am I ranting? *sniff* Manfred act become more pityful this morning…
Mnafred: “I want go aunty XXX house”

Mummy:” aunt XXX not freee.. Aunt XXX go work..”

Manfred:” Aunt XXX free…aunt XXX free………….. (repeat endless times during the 10mins drive….)

Mummy:……(keeping silent & inhale exhale)

Manfred:”*CoughX3* I want go Aunt XXX house.. I want go class… I want go…. (Just don’t want go school..)

Mummy:” sorry bao bei, I know u r upset but u r going to school.. mummy pick u up after school…

REached school.. Floor rolling, coughing, yelling and wailing non stop………. and I have Jude in car with me who starting to fuss soon…
Still dropped him off… Big U-turn park car again.. Nurse Jude… till he burp…. Carry Jude, walk to school…

Peep peep peep.. kenot find Manfred… after 300seconds, Ms Queenie saw me peeping and show me where Manfred was… I walked to another door and peep again… Okay… mission accomplished… He was sipping water… no sigh of sadness or traumatized or anything…. off I go……

Told Jude have to be good boy in car seat mummy gotto drive yada yada….. (I just feel so stressful but trying very hard to hold on my cool….) Settle Jude into car seat, gave him my mobile phone to hold on… drive back home!

10minutes….. Finally he dozed off… no fussing…….. Thank goodness….. For the stresses that I swallowed it and not bursting out into full blown yelling and stressful nagging… Finally I got Manfred to school…… Jude fallen asleep…. and I just can’t help to blog this down..

Mummies out there, do you face similar situation? Crying unsettleable baby or toddler???? do you think they just loved to bully their mummies cause mummies are the greatest? I can’t bring 2 boys to playground on my own as Manfred will want to sit in stroller and Jude wants to be carried….. But hubby can put jude in stroller and have Manfred walk with him to park.. all by himself!!!! WTF???!!!!!!! (Pardon my foul language..)