emptiness空虛

Some days it is ok,
Many days it spiral out of control.

My mind is as scrambled as this post.
I don’t know where “it” is heading to.

The devil in me makes me do evil things sometimes. Evil things like losing temper, being foolish and being not wise.
God has given me this situation as a test so I could grow. But I have failed terribly. I am honestly defeated. At least I feel so at this very moment.

I do not feel supported, warmth or secured. Everything is luke warm… And it’s not doing me good.

I pray for guidance if I am lost,
I pray for health if I am not well,
I pray for peace, love and joy,
I pray, I pray and I pray..

Who says Dragon year good?!

Well, it hasn’t been a great start for us in term of health issue. In Friday Manfred develop rash on whole body plus mild fever. Followed by a paed visit for Jude cause he also developed fever and suffer from constipation. He was given enema plus some cough, cold and fever syrup.

I expect them to be on their way to recovery. However they both seem to be fine one day and got worst the other.

We had to bring Jude to clinic on first day of CNY at 4pm, he was given suppository and his throat was swelling. He was prescribe with augmentin too.

On 2nd day I had to lug a lot of stuffs along as we have 2places to visit before I could go back to my parents place for 2nights. 2nd night Manfred’s turn to develop again another fever.

HELP!!!!! As I am typing this, it’s the 3rd day, and I have decided to just stay home and have steamboat session as planned.. I want the boys to rest as much as they could to recuperate. No more visiting! Until they are all well again!

龙年行大运！发啊！

冬去春又来！龙年到啦！

虽然今年气氛真的是麻麻底！到了三天前才有想过年的感觉。

达与澔都不是很舒服。希望他们快快好起来， 迎接新一年！

祝各位朋友龙年健康，财运滚滚来！

Jude

18SX – Manfred

See what I have to deal with? On a friday which CNY is so close. It started off with a very mild fever on Thursday night. Friday morning became rash on neck area.

So he skipped school, whereby Jude went school as usual. Manfred napped for 2 hours and by 5pm I realize the rash EXPLODE AND SPREAD TO WHOLE BODY!!! HORROR!!!!!! Hub brought him to clinic. Doc suspect is food allergy. But I don’t think we have fed him anything he never had before!! Anyhow he has fever and itch and rash. He seems better after medication. Let’s hope he will be well again by Sunday.